When I lived in South Carolina

I made my own tortillas

Sprouted seeds

Made raw bread with a dehydrator.

Penland changed my diet for worse

And everything else for better.

I gained a few kilos,

Faced the end of love,

Started making good work.

Now instead of having nervous breakdowns

Because I can’t find my keys

Or waking up crying because I’m a failure

And feeling dead all the time

I am definitely alive

If certainly aging.

Look,

I’m 32 today.

Stuck in my twenties.

My thighs are too big

My teeth are fake

My toes quite hairy and horrible.