somebody just told me

that my skin looks amazing

for being 31

and,

really,

i will be 32 soon.

i have a foot in the grave

an eye in the sea

a nail in the mail.

my body has definitely started

to rot,

whether you can see that or not

yet.

sylvia plath didn’t live to be my age

and i wonder if i deserve this air

that comes in and out of me

incessantly.

my 7-year-old brother

once just sat at his desk

he left the page blank

“what did you do instead?”

“i thought”

he said.